Marriage First, True Love Later - Chapter 244
244 This is good
On the way back, Lin Li fell asleep not long after she got into the car.
Zhou han didn’t wake her up. He just helped her adjust her seat so that she could sleep more comfortably. He also tried to slow down the car and drive more smoothly.
However, Lin Li didn’t sleep well on the way. It wasn’t that Zhou han drove unsteadily, but it was a nightmare.
At the red light, Zhou han turned to look at her and saw that her forehead was covered in sweat. Her brows were furrowed tightly, and even the hand on her thigh was clenched tightly.
“Lin Li?” Zhou han called out softly and reached out to Pat her face.
Lin Li suddenly sat up and panted slightly, as if she had dreamed of something terrible.
“Are you alright?” Zhou han looked at her and frowned in worry.
Lin Li covered her eyes with her hands and shook her head without saying a word.
Zhou han looked at her until the car behind him honked in protest. Then, he looked up and saw that the red light in front had turned green. He started the car and drove away.
It was very quiet along the way. Lin Li leaned her head and Zhou han didn’t ask her what she dreamed of.
The car stopped in the building’s parking lot. Lin Li was still in the same position as before, as if she was in a daze.
Zhou han didn’t call her and just sat with her in the car for a long time. However, she didn’t come back to her senses for a long time. Finally, he said softly, ” Lin Li.
Lin Li seemed to have woken up from a dream. She looked outside and realized that she had returned.
She only nodded and said, ” we’re here. As he spoke, he unbuckled his seat belt and prepared to get out of the car.
“What did you dream of just now?” Zhou han asked from behind. His voice was not loud and his emotions did not fluctuate much.
The hand that was about to open the door paused. After a long silence, he only said, ” “It’s nothing,”
Since she didn’t answer, Zhou han didn’t ask any more questions. He unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car.
The two of them were silent along the way. She did not explain, and he did not ask any more questions.
When she got home, Lin Li returned to her room and closed the door for the entire afternoon.
When Zhou han pushed the door open and entered, he saw her sitting alone on the tatami mat by the window sill. Her head was leaning against the window and her hands were hugging her knees.
He walked up to her and said, ” “It’s time to eat,”
Lin Li didn’t move. She just leaned on him, her eyes staring at an unknown spot.
“You love him that much?” Zhou han asked her with a cold tone and a serious expression.
Lin Li raised her head and looked at him. After a while, she said, ” “I dreamed of a child.”
Upon hearing this, Zhou han was stunned for a moment. When he came to his senses, he knew that the child she was talking about should be the child she had miscarried in an accident.
Lin Li lowered her head and hugged herself even more tightly. She placed her chin on her knees and looked very helpless. She only said softly, ” I told Chengxiang that I forgave him and said that I didn’t blame him for causing me to lose my child. But I just dreamed of the scene when the child left. That feeling was so painful. It really hurt.
“You’re in pain because you can’t let go.” Just like how he couldn’t let go of Xiao bin’s background, ” it’s not important whether you forgive Chengxiang or not. What’s important is whether you let yourself go or not. If you can’t let yourself go, it’s the same whether you forgive or not. Forgiveness is just an excuse, an excuse to make yourself and others feel at ease.
Lin Li didn’t say anything, and her tears fell silently down her cheeks. She knew that Zhou han was right, and she couldn’t refute him at all. She really couldn’t forget that scene. She had looked forward to that child so much, but in the end, he left in that way.
some things have to be faced. Running away will only make you suffer more. I know that the process of facing it is always painful, but only by facing it can I let it go. Only by letting it go can I be truly free. This was the conclusion he came to from his relationship with Xiao bin. At first, he didn’t dare to face the truth about the child’s identity, so every time he saw the child, he was always in pain and struggle. After he really faced it and faced the problem directly, he really let it go. Now that he faced the child again, he didn’t have the pain and struggle from before.
Lin Li was still silent. Her eyes were closed, and the corners of her mouth trembled slightly, as if she was suppressing something.
Zhou han didn’t say anything more. He turned around and left the room. There were some things that he could only let go of completely by facing it himself. Other people could only give advice at most and couldn’t help him with anything.
The sunlight outside the window was bright, so bright that it was a little dazzling. There was no need to go out to feel it. In winter, such sunlight was inadvertently a very good and warm weather.
Lin Li didn’t know how long she had been sitting there. When she recalled it, she only remembered that she had been sitting there from day to night, and then from night to day.
Did she sit there for the entire afternoon and night?
Lin Li didn’t look at the time, but she guessed so.
His leg was so numb that he felt like it wasn’t his own leg anymore. He couldn’t feel anything when he moved, and all that was left was numbness.
She had thought a lot that night, so much so that she still had not digested it. The numbness in her legs made her unable to move, so she could only sit weakly with her eyes closed, waiting for the numbness to pass.
Just as Lin Li closed her eyes and leaned back powerlessly, there was a knock on the door.
Thump thump thump! The knocking was a little fierce and urgent.
Lin Li was a little puzzled. Zhou han would never knock on the door like this. She wanted to stand up to open the door, but she forgot that her legs were so numb that she couldn’t use any strength at all. When she stood up, her legs bent and she fell directly to the ground. oof … although her butt landed on the wooden floor, her heart really ached. She frowned and her face became a little twisted.
The person outside the door seemed to have heard the movement inside and directly opened the door to enter. A young and tender voice shouted, ” Auntie!
Then, before Lin Li could react, a small figure had already run towards her. Her small hand pulled her little guy, and he was so anxious that he cried, ” Auntie, what’s wrong with you? what’s wrong with you …
Lin Li raised her head and saw the little face in front of her clearly. The little guy was so worried that tears were hanging on his face.
“Xiaobin, why are you back?” She remembered that Zhou han said that he had sent him to the courtyard and only brought him back on Monday.
“Auntie, what’s wrong with you? do you not want me anymore?” The little guy cried as he asked, and Lin Li’s heart ached when she saw his pitiful look.
Lin Li smiled bitterly. So Zhou han was using this as an excuse to send the child over. She propped herself up and wanted to get up, but the pain from her butt made Lin Li frown. Her legs were still numb and she couldn’t feel anything.
When the little guy saw this, he thought that she had caught some kind of serious illness. He was so anxious that he cried even harder. His tears fell continuously, and he hurriedly shouted at Zhou han, ” Daddy, Daddy, Auntie can’t stand up! Auntie can’t stand up!”
“Xiaobin, Auntie is fine. She just fell and her legs are a little numb from sitting for too long.” Lin Lian stroked her leg and patted it, hoping that it would recover soon.
The little guy didn’t listen to her anymore. He cried and said, ” Auntie, are you going to die? do you also not want Xiao bin? don’t die, I’ll listen to you from now on, and I won’t hide from Grandpa and Grandma anymore. I’ll love them as much as I used to. Don’t die, don’t abandon me, okay …
Lin Li was a little dumbfounded. Her heart ached for the child, but at the same time, she felt very helpless. She didn’t know how to explain at all. She could only wipe the little guy’s face and help him wipe the tears on his face while comforting him, ” Xiao bin, don’t cry. Auntie is fine. Auntie is really fine. As she said that, she looked towards the door anxiously, thinking that Zhou han was still not coming over.
She looked up and saw Zhou han standing at the door. She didn’t know how long he had been there. He was leaning against the door with his arms crossed and looking at her with a faint smile.
Lin Li glared at him, then lowered her head and said to the little guy, ” “Xiaobin, Auntie is really fine. If you don’t believe me, you can ask Dad.”
Hearing this, the little guy turned around and saw Zhou han at the door. He asked with red eyes, ” “Daddy, will Auntie die?”
Zhou han stepped forward and touched the little guy’s head. “Go and bring the milk on the table.” As he spoke, he bent down and picked Lin Li up horizontally.
Lin Li didn’t react in time. She subconsciously reached out and hugged his neck tightly, letting out a soft cry.
Zhou han looked at her and carried her to the bed.
The little guy was afraid that Lin Li would die and not want him. When he heard Zhou han calling him to go out and get some milk, he ran out without thinking.
Zhou han placed her on the bed and pulled the blanket over her. He said in a low voice, ” “Who told you not to eat? you must be so hungry that you don’t have any strength.” There was a hint of mockery in his tone, as if he was watching a show.
Lin Li glared at him angrily and questioned, ” what nonsense are you talking to Xiaobin about! You don’t know how fragile that child is!” Now that the child was close to her, he was most afraid that she would not want him either.
Zhou han didn’t say anything. He just smiled faintly.
The little guy quickly brought the milk over and handed it to Lin Li. Auntie, drink milk.
Lin Li smiled and reached out to take it. thank you, Xiaobin.
The little guy pouted and still had a worried look on his face. He looked at Lin Li for a while before turning to Zhou han and said, ” “Dad, let’s take Auntie to the hospital.” He was really afraid that Lin Li would die. His mother didn’t want him, and his father said that he wasn’t his child. If even aunt Lin Li didn’t want him, then he was really a child that no one wanted.
Lin Li was helpless. Looking at the child, her heart ached and she felt a little helpless. She could only turn her head and stare at Zhou han.
Zhou han ignored her gaze and only said indifferently, ” “Auntie is fine. She’s just too hungry to have any strength. She’ll be fine after eating something.”
Upon hearing this, the little guy was overjoyed. He went forward and pulled Lin Li’s hand, asking, ” “Auntie, is that true?”
Lin Li could only nod in agreement with Zhou Han’s words. She didn’t eat for the whole day yesterday and was indeed so hungry that she didn’t have any energy.
“Then I’ll find something for you to eat.” When he heard that he only needed to eat, the little guy quickly ran out to find something.
Seeing the child go out, Lin Li then asked Zhou han, ” “Xiao bin, why are you back?”
Zhou han looked at her and said, ” when you miss your child, just look at Xiao bin.
Lin Li was stunned for a moment, then realized that he was worried about her, so he brought the child back to divert her attention.
The tip of Lin Li’s nose inexplicably felt sour. She didn’t want him to see her slightly red eyes. Lin Li turned her head and lowered her head to drink her milk.
Zhou han didn’t say anything more. He just said, ” I’ll go out and make breakfast. After saying that, he turned and left.
Lin Li drank the milk. The tip of her nose was sour, and her eyes were slightly red, but her heart was inexplicably warm.
Looking at the door that was closed again, she thought for a whole night. Perhaps she really should understand.
Because his condition had already dragged on to the point where it couldn’t be dragged on any longer, once Chengxiang agreed to the operation, Chengxiang’s attending doctor discussed with his parents to determine the date of the operation.
Although Chengxiang was still sulking and didn’t say anything, he didn’t refuse the treatment.
Although Cheng Zheng’s mother was sad, she was also relieved.
Because the cancer cells were at risk of spreading at any time, after Chengxiang’s body temperature dropped, the hospital observed him for two days before preparing for surgery.
Lin Li hadn’t gone to the hospital to visit Cheng Xiang since the day she talked to Zhou han. However, on the day of the operation, Cheng Xiang’s mother called her and said that she hoped she could come.
Lin Li thought for a moment and decided to go over after some consideration. When she arrived at the hospital, Chengxiang was just about to be pushed into the operating room. When he saw her coming over, he was a little excited.
Lin Li didn’t say much and only nodded at him, reaching out to hold his hand.
“Lin Li, thank you for coming to see me.” Chengxiang held her hand, his eyes a little wet.
Lin Li didn’t say much. Her eyes were also a little red. She held his hand back and said softly, ” all the best.
Cheng Xiang was pushed into the operating room, carrying the hopes of his parents and Lin Li’s well wishes.
Lin Li was sitting on the chairs outside the operating room with Cheng Zheng’s parents. Cheng Zheng’s mother was holding her hand so tightly that Lin Li’s hand turned red without her noticing.
Lin Li wanted to find some topics to talk about to ease their high tension.
Thinking that she hadn’t seen Xiaoxiao several times, she asked, ” “Why don’t I see Xiaoxiao?”
Hearing this, Cheng Zheng’s mother, who was standing at the side, said with some hatred, ” don’t mention that woman. Ever since I found out that Chengxiang was sick, she came over diligently for the first few days. Later, when I heard the doctor say that Chengxiang’s leg had to be amputated, she disappeared. To think that I treated her like my own daughter. I didn’t expect her to be so ungrateful!
After hearing what she said, Lin Li couldn’t help but feel a little emotional. She also felt that Chengxiang wasn’t worth it.
“Xiao Li, it was all my fault.” Cheng Zheng’s mother looked at Lin Li guiltily. One could only know who was good and who was bad after comparison.
Lin Li shook her head and patted her hand, saying, ” “It has nothing to do with Auntie. There was a problem between Chengxiang and I to begin with.”
“No, no, it’s my fault. It’s all my fault.” Cheng Zheng’s mother blamed herself and looked at Lin Li. “Xiao Li, don’t take it to heart. It was auntie’s fault in the past. If you and Chengxiang still want to be together in the future, Auntie will definitely not object.”
Lin Li wasn’t stupid. She naturally understood the meaning behind her words. She looked at her and didn’t say anything for a while, but her mind unconsciously recalled the words that Zhou han said to her after drinking that day.
I’m just scared and timid. I don’t dare to try again. But because it’s you, I want to try again …
“Lin Li?” Seeing that she didn’t speak for a long time, Cheng Zheng’s mother reached out and patted her.
Lin Li came back to her senses and looked at her anxious eyes. She only avoided her eyes and said, ” “Let the past be the past.”
but … Cheng Zheng’s mother wanted to say something but was stopped by Cheng Zheng’s father’s eyes. In the end, she could only stammer and stop.
The atmosphere turned from nervous to a little awkward. Lin Li reached out and pulled her hand away. She smiled at them, got up, and said, ” “I’ll go buy some water.” Then, he walked away.
After Lin Li walked away, Cheng Zheng’s father looked at Cheng Zheng’s mother with some disapproval and said, ” “Don’t say these things in front of other people’s children in the future.”
“I, I’m doing this for Chengxiang’s own good.” Thinking of her son, mother Cheng reached out and wiped her tears. look at Chengxiang. He’ll listen to Lin Li. If Lin Li can stay by Chengxiang’s side after the operation, then Chengxiang will definitely be able to stand up again. Don’t you want what’s best for our son? ”
“Even if it’s for Chengxiang’s own good, he can’t cheat Lin Li! Just think about the past. Let’s not talk about how we objected to Chengxiang dating her, just think about what we did when Chengxiang caused Lin Li to have a miscarriage. We have to have a conscience. It was our family who let Lin Li down first, but now that Chengxiang has lost a leg, it’s too unreasonable to ask her to come back.”
I-I think Lin Li still has feelings for Chengxiang. Otherwise, why would she come and look at him like this? she must be worried, so she can’t let go. Mother Cheng was stubborn.
“Do you really think that Chengxiang wouldn’t hate Lin Li and still get together with him after what he did to her back then?” Cheng Zheng’s father didn’t think much of it. she probably came to see Chengxiang because of human compassion. If we were in Lin Li’s shoes, would we be able to watch Chengxiang just leave her be? ”
I … Cheng Zheng’s mother was at a loss for words and couldn’t answer.
Cheng Zheng’s father let out a long sigh and said, ” people should know how to be grateful. You see, Lin Li is on good terms with that Mr. Zhou now. Don’t disturb his life anymore. We were the ones who let him down first. How can we ask for more? ”
I don’t think Lin Li is that close with that man. That man is so serious every day. He’s freezing to death. Cheng Zheng’s mother muttered softly.
Cheng Zheng’s father only glanced at her and didn’t say anything else.
Cheng Xiang’s surgery had been going on for a full five hours, and the bright ” in surgery ” word finally dimmed. The door to the operating room opened, and the chief surgeon came out. He took off his mask and was a little tired, but he still smiled as he congratulated Cheng Xiang’s parents, who had surrounded him. The surgery was going very smoothly.
Hearing the doctor say that the operation was successful, Cheng Zheng’s parents were so excited that they almost cried. For so many days, nothing had made them happier and happier than this.
Looking at them, Lin Li’s anxious heart finally settled down. She let out a sigh of relief. She didn’t go forward, nor did she wait for Chengxiang to come out. She just turned around and left. This was good …
